So much has changed since I last blogged. I’m both not the same person and on the other hand, more me, more certain than I’ve ever been.
I’ve been signed off work for 2 months with anxiety and depression, I went through CBT, I (well we, it was mutual) decided to separate (and then get divorced). I moved house. To put it mildly, it’s been exhausting. But its also been liberating, and exciting. Yes, there’s been low patches, and tears, and more than a few panic attacks. There’s been days of muddling through in a zombie like fog. But then there’s been laughter, as in so much it makes me cry (happy tears!). There’s been support, I am surrounded by so many fantastic people, and feel so chuffing lucky to have the friends & family that I do. And there’s been strength. I am so much stronger than I thought, and again this is partly (a big part) down to the support!
But what I’ve gone through isn’t easy. Sitting down with people you know and telling them you’re depressed, that you’re getting divorced is a test in itself. Admitting it to yourself is the worst and trickiest bit. But I did it, and I did it while focusing on the good, looking on the bright side, taking the piss and having a laugh. Yeah, I know I’m tooting my own horn here, but fuck it I deserve it!
So while the business takes a back seat and gets rebranded and relaunched next year, I’m going to blog. Stitches & Stars has always been about spreading good vibes, but now I really have focus and a stronger understanding of that. So thank you so much for reading this, and for still being on team Stitches. Your support really means the world to me, and I can’t wait to see what 2018 brings for us.